but you didnt

澳洲女那里偷来的  but you didnt..这过去时真可怕。。。

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Remember the day I borrowed your brand new car and dented it?
I thought you’d kill me, but you didn’t.

And remember the time I dragged you to the beach, and you said it would rain, and it did?
I thought you’d say, "I told you so." But you didn’t.

Do you remember the time I flirted with all the guys to make you jealous, and you were?
I thought you’d leave, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the time I spilled strawberry pie all over your car rug?
I thought you’d hit me, but you didn’t.

And remember the time I forgot to tell you the dance was formal and you showed up in jeans?
I thought you’d drop me, but you didn’t.

Yes, there were lots of things you didn’t do.
But you put up with me, and loved me, and protected me.

There were lots of things I wanted to make up to you when you returned from Vietnam.
But you didn’t.

happiness vs unhappiness (写完发现很无聊)

research says people are born to be unhappy, but not to be happy..meaning unhappiness is in our genes while happiness is not. so it’s not true that the less unhappiness we have, the happier we are.so we dont avoid or deal with unhappiness in order to be happy.  so we are not necessarily happy if we say we are not unhappy. so we can allow ourselves to have unphappiess hanging around.
but the good thing is since it’s not genetic..we can create and/or increase happiness as we wish…some other researcher said there is 10% of our happiness is determined by life circumstances…and it leaves “40% of our capacity for happiness within our power to change”..here are the “strategies” given by this professor…
1. counting your blessings
2. practicing acts of kindness
3. nurturing optimism
4. learning to forgive
5. investing in relationships
6. increasing flow experiences
7. avoiding overthinking
8. savoring life’s joys
9. taking care of your soul
10. committing to your goals
11. using your body: exercise, meditation, smiling, and rest
don’t freak out..though you already know you in fact have to work your ass off to  make yourself happy or happier…it would be so much easier if it’s the other way around..meaning..being happy is genetic…so we need genetic transformation..not these intimidating tips that you don’t even know how to fit in…that’s one of the reasons why we have to believe in scientists before they tell us this world is like a black hole that sucks…
so (sorry..i m out of transitional words..it doesnt seem logical)..”to conclude my conclusion”…sadly enough…due to scientific incompetence up to date…unhappiness rules!!

老歌一首

 
"i’m like a bird…i only fly away..i dont know where my home is…i dont know where my soul is.."
 
awkward timing…awful feeling…why did you find me, and keep coming back?
i am the bird, who has to fly away eventually, though disoriented, though it’s against my wish
so the bird has to give away, to continue navigating, to find the place that wants her to stay
 
i hate to flap my wings again..but that’s what a bird does…sigh…
 
 
(part of the lyrics)
Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don’t know me that well
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

It’s not that I wanna say goodbye
It’s just that every time you try to tell me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I’m going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I’m just scared
That we may fall through

 
 

2010年终于过一半了

今天傻了 总觉得是星期五 可能是累了 身体让我休息了
然后提醒自己才星期三 然后又以为是星期五 然后再次提醒 糊里糊涂的 傻姑一个
原来还没到周末 是半年末 这恶心的六月终于要过去了 纪念下吧
来纽约也五个半月了 真正地一个人生活了五个半月 有得有失 有起有伏 有挣扎有解脱 说不上活蹦乱跳地活着 但还算满足 大事小事 自己不去做 就不会发生 量力而为 见好就收 见坏也收
 
最近发生的一些事情 发现自己根本没有资格浪费时间 于是决定要珍惜 珍惜自己 珍惜在乎的人 珍惜生活 珍惜米国  (额 我没得绝症。。)
或许是我太多虑 我总那么偏激 可最后总能找到让船变直的桥头 所以我想这次我还要继续多虑 继续担心 然后才能像以前每次那样化险为夷
 
每天念叨着想过饭来张口的日子 可不为“今天吃什么”之类的问题而苦恼才算悲哀吧
所以人不自虐就不觉得自己活着 我的生活就是自虐和反自虐的斗争体
自虐无极限 欧也。。。
 
 

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